you are the knowing —
not the self that knows,
nor even a self that can know.

the self is only an object,
and can never know.
Knowing is not a doer,
not an entity.

the knower is an error —
only knowing and self,
both distinct: one is mind,
the other object.

if you are the knowing,
there is no “you” in it.
knowing is all there is;
everything rests within its presence.

all there is, is knowing;
all else is merely objects.
you, the comment, the commented.
are all objects within knowing’s field.

you can never step away from knowing,
nor be at the object,
nor return to the knowing —
for you have never left it,
except in ignorance.

nothing escapes knowing.
there is nothing beyond it.
even the thought
“knowing has more to know”
is itself object of knowing.

there is no more, nor less, in knowing.
knowing is everything —
but everything is not knowing.
all is under its presence,
including nothing.

knowing alone is the Nature.
all else —
only the shimmering appearances
of that Nature.

knowing is light.
whereas objects—whether mental or external—are heavy.
compared to the open clarity of knowing,
all objects carry a certain density.
it is this density that pulls us in, that catches us,
that makes us forget the vantage point of simply knowing.

when a mental object is wholesome, its weight is lighter,
and knowing can flow with less obstruction.
when a mental object is unwholesome, its weight thickens,
and knowing becomes clouded, pulled into turbulence.

in meditation, the unfolding of insight,
or the settling of calm, depends
on the kind of density we are passing through.

when the world outside is favorable
and the inner object is wholesome,
meditation feels like a river moving without stones.

when the world outside is unfavorable yet
the mind remains wholesome, the river still moves,
though with a few currents to navigate.

when both the world outside and the mind inside
are unfavorable and unwholesome,
the water becomes dark and choked;
entering meditation then is difficult,
even harmful, without the guidance of a skilled hand.

when the world outside is favorable
but the mind inside is unwholesome,
the river may seem smooth,
but it bends toward sensual pleasure rather than stillness.

so in practice, remember:
train yourself to remain in the wisdom of knowing,
rather than within the density of objects,
whether internal or external.

stand firmly in KNOWING,
and know all things—
be it person, situation, event,
wholesome or unwholesome, light or heavy—
are merely OBJECT.

one after wisdom
the other over feeling
giving rise to know-how
another craving-wow

it is of no wonder
feeling arises craving
whereas interest
arises wisdom

craving and interest
are two different nature
in case there is confusion
check out cause or effect

craving an effect
from chasing feeling
interest a cause
for seeking knowledge

one comes in after
the other before
of what is already there
and what is not yet

wise or foolishness
is denoted by only these
of which are choices made
and you the maker of it

your mind can be
of either side
and you are responsible
for both of them

watch out where both lead
not just a mere know-how
or a brief craving-wow
as its result is far-reaching

the next time you suffer
you are guilty of it
if you do not
you are a result of it

knowledge gets you out
craving draws you in
for both are your doing
of choosing cause, or after effect

with knowledge
cause and effect understood
with craving
cause and effect never understood

invest in feeling
down the rabbit hole it goes
invest in knowledge
the sky awaits.

I live
for the past,
where future,
but a memory

not understanding,
reverse occurred,
future a bait,
past is gone.

in truth,
past a gateway,
present a dream,
future a reminder.

where you stand,
a body can be,
or a bodhi,
a choice made.

illusion can be,
truth never be,
one a makeup,
the other unchanged.

a projection,
made perception
an extension,
gives a reflection.

this moment,
shadow of past.
no shadow,
now never was.

stacks of shadow,
continuity seem.
lack of substance,
ghostly now.

perception culprit,
projection cause.
looking out, the reason,
ignorance the root.

future never was,
but, a now mistake.
past seems to be,
except a looking out.

past never pasts,
now never exist,
future none at all,
a mistake all seen.

forward, a disdain,
future, a shame,
outward a silly mistake,
except a moment error.

look not to object,
from mind it begins,
not even that,
but illusion of desire.

no past to reverse,
no present to undo,
no future to stop,
only a wakeup call.

beyond these,
nothing came,
nothing gone,
only the Unchanged.

———
The above was inspired by this morning’s early appearance of wisdom. The mind woke up groggy at 2am preparing to meditate and while doing a light walk after a drink, wisdom came and showed how the present appeared out of nowhere due to the immediate past. There was a tiny surprise and wish to recall and that brought forth another new moment. Two moment were shown how existence came to be because of forward bound.

The immediate past has no future awaiting, just as the same goes to there is no future after the now. Yet, the “next” appears, by the very fact what happens at the mind of the now. A projection took place and the world came to be again. Ignorance clearly is the cause where the 12 Dependent Origination is understood at another new level.

Birth brings joy
Death brings grief
The cycle ends

Birth brings death
Death brings birth
The cycle repeats

Such a contrast
Seen from concept
Seen from reality

Until Reality seen
Feeling is our measure
Pleasure over displeasure

Clinging to feelings
We keep seeking
Causing us a return

Unbeknown too many
The cycle can be broken
The end of birth and death

Thus let death be known
Let birth be seen
Both arising from clinging

As grief comes to heart
Or joy comes to mind
Be mindful it is just the mind

The mind being the cause
The mind being the effect
The mind being the end

Rest then in peace
For the alive
And for the dead

Where the mind is the player
Where birth and death its mirage
Not knowing we fall again and again

To be seen correctly
Mindfulness the way
Wisdom the fruit.

the mind
so near, yet so far.
the mind
so blatant, yet so hidden

that that knows
is the mind
yet what is known
covers up the mind

the object, always further
the mind, always closest
how then not
the mind be known?

without mind
there are no experiences
without body
experiences still prevails

mind oh mind
elusive you are
with wisdom
you are finally seen!

what else there is
if not mind,
if not mind
there is no what else

so much you made up
so little you too caused
yet correctly seen
nothing was madeup

a wonderment
the mind
a nightmare
also the mind

keep watching
the mind
mind watching mind
transcends all minds

how can you know your mind
if what you know
are derived from voices
of concepts and ideas
what the mind is
that
it didn’t occur to you
they are narratives
buildup from past meanings?

how can you not know your mind
if its working
is an obvious happening
where no moment
is deprived of it
even as you
are reading these lines
where your experience
is but just
mindworks?

so do you know or not know
your mind
if both are also true
where
its workings
are not noticed
and instead
its narratives
are believed in

thus what is required
is not giving value
to what the mind tells
but instead
observe the way
the mind works
having awareness
and right attitude
of mind nature unfolding

though awareness is also mind
observing too, the mind
where other mind activities
can be known and observed
it is a good start
to begin with
before awareness too
be observed
observed too be known

where mind meets mind
one as object
the other subjective
seemingly two happenings
occurring
observer will soon
be known as observing
“I” will soon
be known as mind illusion

wake up
wake up soon
to the mindworks
otherwise
the narratives
are what conjures the world
and you have to appear
to seemingly
experience both.

no one wakes up
wakes up you must
no one awakened
awakened must happen
no one walks the path
the path must be shown
from someone
to no one
from no one to One.

1st Noble Truth
suffering
never due to situation
never due to event
never due to people
not even you

2nd Noble Truth
craving
is the real reason
is the actual cause
is the only ignorance
not at all you

3rd Noble Truth
end of suffering
is not to stop craving
is not to end craving
is not to do away craving
not your doing

4th Noble Truth
path to the end of suffering
merely an introduction
merely a correction
merely a right understanding
not your making

…….

the function of the path
is not
to end suffering.
non-suffering is its effect

the function of the path
is not
to end craving
craving itself is defunct

as such
the path doesn’t change anything
but change occurs

the path doesn’t do away anything
but do away occurs

the path is not a replacement
but a replacement occurs

the path is not a doing
but recognition over ignorance

each moment
has the mind involves
— this you may not notice

due to the mind
moment comes to be
— this too you may not notice

there is no moment
only the mind processing
— again, this you may not notice

the world
is an inside out job
of a mental condition

the world
is an outside in job
of a mental delusion

whether an inside out
or an outside in job
both are merely mindworks

the mind
has ideas of inside outside
except as a concept

truly no outside or inside
is found
except just a mindwork.

how then can the mind
sees the world
an impression it is outside?

surely an error is not seen
with the world
seemingly separated from the mind?

the body too is mindmade
how then can the body
be outside the mind?

you and I
are no two-objects
and with the world
a seemingly three objects

all these are just
concepts of mindworks
weaving itself

do not be fooled
you can be enlightened
as enlightenment is not you

out of mindworks
of “you”, “others” and “world”
itself is enlightenment.

you, a preposterous idea
the world too, preposterous!
when awakening dawn.

people, event, situation
is where you are constantly
caring about

you care about people
you care about events
you care about situations

and every of this
is about others and outside,
and not you

but is that true?
is there a others or outside?
is there a separation, from you?

what about considering
what you cared
is actually you, uncared?

is there really people, event, situation?
or there is only your mind
about people, event, situation?

if you would have noticed
it is your mind
you would have cared for that

if you have not
then the world is
your caring place

where caring becomes
an obsessive control
and judgments

your mind needs caring
otherwise
the world needs fixing

care your mind,
the world will be an extension
care the world
your mind will be projecting

caring the world, the mind is uncared
caring the mind, the world is cared
for people, event and situation is you.

“my body”
never a reality,
except
the mind
a mental perception.

not
correctly comprehended
“my body”
now seemingly a state
of a worldly condition.

when correctly seen
attachment is non-existence
wrongly seen
attachment is inevitable
fear then must follow.

“my” a mental perception
“body” another perception
attachment too
a mind happening
all merely a fabrication dance.

when mind
not wisely discerned
a looks-like world
appears
separation an inevitable event.

when mind
correctly understood
non-separation
always the only reality
the “world” is but the mind.

“my body”
conditioned attachment
attachment
conditioned clinging
clinging
conditioned becoming
becoming
conditioned a cycle.

when the origin
correctly seen
followup cannot occur
the cyclic comes to nought
ceasing its effect.

Right Understanding
the Path
Cessation its Fruit.
Unconditioned
inevitable.

pursuing the world
the Path is forgotten

pursuing the Path
the world is forgone

pursuing the Truth
the Path forgives the world

the Middle Way
forsakes nothing.

if a great land has been offered 
that could grow many fruit trees
or that could give you a home
or an income to sustain your life
or that could initiate a noble endeavour
that many could possibly be enlightened
which then would you choose?

surely you must be considering
what will be your present needs
and a long-term goal
that will yield a maximal advantage
to your continuous happiness
and sustenance of well-being 
within this comprehensible lifetime.

what if there’s another perspective
which you are not told
which you are not aware
which you could never imagine
where choosing rightly
could bring more than just happiness
but yet not visible, but yet assured?

would you then choose that path
by giving up that land
for a higher purpose
a higher vision for the benefit of many
which its return is unimaginable 
to your present mind, 
to your present needs?

if only, if only, you could have,
that profound understanding
of a Reality far more larger 
then what you could imagine
you would have offered
all your sweat, blood, and effort
to make it come true.

You wouldn’t have held back a second
In giving up your needs
In exchange for such a lovely gift
as you are fully aware
the fruit that comes therein
where nothing could replace it
or even compare to it.

O Mighty Truth!
grant that you have that knowledge
that understanding
in discerning what is truly, truly important
as to transcend what has always
being difficult to comprehend
difficult to overcome.

You
finally come to understand
finally arrive
finally know—
what has always being pointed
what needs to be done—
after much
confusions
errors
perplexes
frustrations
or even on
the verge of giving up.

Do you remember
how much difficulty
you have gone through
before securing the Way?
to know how to develop?
to know how to recognize errors?
to know what is right and wrong?
I doubt you do,
I doubt you will ever know,
the many countless unknown
causes and conditions
that took place.

Along the way
another wayfarer comes along
you teach them what you know
on how to walk the Way
how to develop the Path
yet what you teach is not what it should be
as you forgot
the many mistakes you made
the many trials you took
the many frustrations you get
before you finally got it right

No one gets it right
but only through errors
no one gets it easy
but only through difficulty
no one gets it fast
but only through grinding
no one gets it swift
but only through mistakes

If you tell them what is right
they may think it is that easy
if you tell them what is wrong
they may think you are rubbish
if you tell them the abstract
they may not listen
if you tell them in simplicity
they may get you wrong
if you don’t tell them
they will not know

Don’t you not see
this mission is impossible
for it is not by telling
the path is seen
but by each in their own way
through errors and frustrations
but never giving up
by being interested in finding
where it went wrong
after many twists and turns
that they finally found,
through their own effort
their own wisdom
their own follies—
the Way
that is only self-evident
only to be known by each
for himself or herself.